Enough is enough. Actually all these while i've realized that i've been wanting to move on but the fact is, i never really try to force myself to do it. & the reason for that is because i flooded myself with positive thoughts and false hopes. From the start, i gave myself three months to fully let go, i thought it's more than enough time for me but hahaha now i'm left with 1 month -.- Gonna speed up my progress! I'm not gonna be stuck in the past anymore, it's just a chapter in the past, that's all. Come on i believe i can do it.

Recently people are pissing me off! Just because i don't show my anger and chose to remain quiet and calm, talking back nicely to you doesn't mean you can continue to accuse me, talking back rudely as if im your maid, even tell all the bad stuffs you assume me doing it to other INFRONT OF MY FACE, HELLO you think im deaf?!  Didn't i explained to you alr? I have my limit too and i hate people who took me for granted fuck em all. & those people who pissed me off till the extent i started shouting and scolding in their face,they went laughing away and pretend nothing happened. WTF?!

I guess i'm really healing, not that i'm totally got over him but at least i don't get hard core emotional that often anymore, which is awesomeeeeee ~ ! I really wish i can put all these aside as soon as possible but sometimes i don't get why i'm still can't bear to let go. Damn it, i need to wake up though i'd rather stay in that dream. & i am definitely not alone! The Lord and the saints are always with me.

Recently, my class out of a sudden is having increasing conflicts-.- I don't know why seriously it all started from small matters to misunderstanding to etc etc , gahhhh don't wna talk about it i'm not any victims anyway. But i think it's really epic and amazing how things can get to such big matter. -.-

This is seriously killing me. I thought I'm getting stronger day after day but it just stab me more and more It's so hurtful, just feeling so miserable. I've already mentally prepared for all this but why it still so sudden and unexpected to me, such a failure! Until now i still can't accept the fact that I'm going through this. There is no reason for me to hold on anymore, but i just can't let go. I am so damn useless.

Oh my geee, upcoming tests are driving me crazy, especially math and science! But still, i prefer to be like this, to have a busy life. Busy till i don't have time to think so much. Lmr, you need to start afresh, start studying don't turn back! Keep move on, move on...