This is seriously killing me. I thought I'm getting stronger day after day but it just stab me more and more It's so hurtful, just feeling so miserable. I've already mentally prepared for all this but why it still so sudden and unexpected to me, such a failure! Until now i still can't accept the fact that I'm going through this. There is no reason for me to hold on anymore, but i just can't let go. I am so damn useless.